Bubbling with excitement

 
We went ahead and tested again (we had purchased a two-test pack) and it was positive again.  It difficult to really contain the excitement that comes when you achieve something that you have been visualizing for many years.  This past weekend, we visited family and shared in on their holiday excitement--we don't celebrate Christmas or Hanukkah or any Winter Holiday for that matter, but we do take the time to give thanks.  I decided to take the dog on a long hike/walk as I always do when I leave the city for calmer and greener pastures.  I decided that I wanted to incorporate some meditation and mindfullnes into my walk.  Sort of like a yoga of walking or a moving meditation.  The snow had almost completely melted and the extra water from the melting was collecting in the brooks and streams.  I made sure to admire each bubbling sound from the streams.  For some reason, on that day, I was really drawn to water.  I figure that my growing child is going to live in an aquaeous environment and that I needed to be in tune with that.  Each time I passed a brook, I squatted down, breathed deeply and engaged my PC muscles.  The dog sat with me and he breathed with me.  He knew (as most animals do) how to be mindful and be in the moment.  We got up and kept walking down the path.  I made sure to stop at each stream to pay respect.  After about an hour of this, I felt so calm.  I think I'll do this sort of mindful walking a few times a week.  It has now been 5 weeks and 2 days since my last blood.